baby a

I still can't believe this is happening. It sounds cheesy, but it really does feel like a dream! We've wanted a baby so bad for so long and now that it finally has happened, I just feel like I'm walking on clouds and it's just too good to be true! Lucky for me, it's all real. This is really happening!

I had a feeling I could be pregnant a little while before I even took a test. [WARNING: If you are a male, I would just skip this whole paragraph!!] I had missed one period (even though there was the teeny tiniest bit of spotting) but I have missed three periods in a row before and I wasn't pregnant. So I didn't think too much of that. But then my boobs got sore. And very sensitive. I would hug someone or they'd bump into something and...oh man. Ouch. However, I thought it could just be prepping for a period. So I tried not to get my hopes up.

But then it never went away. And I never got my period.

So around my 26th birthday, I decided it was probably time to take a test. I stopped by the store on my way home from work and paced those isles. Do I want a test with a clear word? Well what if it was positive? I would want to keep the test, so would the word disappear after a while? Better get the one with the lines...but what if the answer isn't as clear?! What if one of the lines is faint?! But I would definitely be able to keep that test and the answer would never go away...would it?

I went back and forth like that for at least an hour, weighing the pros and cons of each brand and test. I finally decided to get the one with the clear words--I would go crazy if the results were confusing and I didn't want to take that chance. Besides, once you know, you can take 100 tests and they'll all say the same thing! I can keep one of those! Yay!

I decided it to wait until my birthday to take the test. Knowing that box was hiding upstairs in the back of my dresser was killing me, but I thought if it's negative, well than it's still my birthday and my day was bound to still be a good one. But if it was positive...oh my goodness. Talk about the best birthday ever!!! I had to be patient.

Friday March 13, 2015

Finally Friday has around and we are having quite the busy morning. James comes in with Henry to sing me Happy Birthday (adorable). I know I have to get up and get ready. I want to make sure I look my best just in case I get to take a certain photo, but I'm already feeling really rushed--I know our loan officer will be arriving any minute to sign papers with us. I also kept getting interrupted as James wants to know what I wanted for my birthday breakfast and updates me on time every few minutes. I'm too scared that he'll walk in on me so I just focus on getting ready and not the test I just carried into the bathroom and hid. I have only curled about a third of my hair before I hear her come in. Shoot! I'm tempted to take the test really fast, but this is not a moment I wanted to be rushed. Not even a little. So I just head downstairs.

About an hour and half later, we have signed all the papers and head back upstairs to finish getting ready and finally get my answer.....but I can't wait. I pull the test from behind the bathroom drawer and take the test before anything else can happen and set it on the edge of the tub.

Okay. Don't look at it. It's loading and it'll just make you more antsy. Just do something else......um.....Ah! I have to look! Still loading. Hm. I could brush my teeth. No, that takes too long. I'll just do a couple curls......Still two of four bars loaded. Okay finished a couple more. Maybe I should look? I'll just take a quick glance....Oh my gosh..does that have a word? A single, short word?!........Okay deep breath, don't get discouraged, you'll be okay, it'll still be a great-.......It says pregnant......It says pregnant!? It says pregnant!.....Does that really say...pregnant?!

I can't help myself. I start shaking so bad, I scare myself. Then it hit really hits me. I start to sob. I fall to my knees and say the most sincere prayer of gratitude I could muster. I can't stop the tears either. I know I had to get ready for work (I was already running pretty late because of the paperwork) so I try to calm myself down enough to finish getting ready. My mother in law is just downstairs and I don't want her to think anything is out of the norm. I go downstairs, pack a lunch, thank her for the birthday gifts on the table and tell her she can have the last birthday donut (I'm going to have to start watching my sugar intake!) and leave for work.

I make a plan that I can’t tell James until his birthday. It only sounds terrible because it’s two weeks away and it’s going to torture me to keep this to myself, but I can't imagine a better present to give him than telling him he was going to finally be a daddy. I smile just picturing the whole thing. I want it to be a really special moment for both of us. You only have your first baby once!...Man, two whole weeks!...But I haven't even seen an OBGYN yet so until I have proof, that might be the smartest thing to do anyway. I feel like I need time to process all of this for myself and figure out all the details (like a due date!) and get some questions answered first.

The whole way there, I think about everything. Telling James, what our little baby will look like, how we would tell our family, if I had been being healthy, what to do first....I start talking to my tummy. It’s not silly! Better get them used to my voice now, right? I am so overjoyed. Tears roll down my cheeks the entire way there, but I am able to keep it together and I’m just enjoying the moment. 

I pull into the parking lot of the office, and immediately make an OBGYN appointment. I know I want Dr. Hamel, I've heard the most amazing things about her! The lady on the phone says her schedule is probably full, but she will check...there’s ONE opening left? I’ll take it! March 23rd. Wow, that’s a long time to hold this in...but this is obviously meant to be! Thank you again Heavenly Father! Now I have the doctor I want and my whole plan is falling into perfect place! 

This lady is really nice about everything—she asks about my birthday, then wishes me a happy one. She asks about the first day of my last period. I remember perfectly and she lets me know I have to be at least 6.5 weeks along. Six and a half weeks!??! Whoa. I tell her my plan and ask if there’s any way James could find out before then. There’s not! This is just turning out to be the perfect day. I get my head in the right place for secret-keeping and head inside the building.

3.13.2015

time to spill the beans...

We're so unbelievably and positively over the moon to announce that I am PREGNANT!!

Baby Anderson

Due November 3, 2015

exciting news!

James and I have officially bought a house and become real grown ups!

We searched for MONTHS and nothing ever really seemed to fit what I thought would be a great home for a family. And to tell you the absolute truth, I can't honestly say this one gave me that "this is home" feeling when I walked through it the first time either. But after we left, I could not stop thinking about it! And it started to grow + grow on me until we decided to put an offer in. I didn't want to get my hopes up, since we'd already lost one house we fell in love with, but we had gone and seen the house just a few hours after it had been put on the market and I was NOT going to lose another great house again!

So we put in an offer a little lower than they were asking and they came back with a full price counter offer. We accepted! And the paperwork has now begun! Now we are watching and waiting as they fix it up (it was a foreclosure) and as all foreclosures are, the closing part is taking a lot of time. We have a date of May 11th, but we keep hearing that it may come even sooner than that!

We signed the bank papers on my birthday--talk about a great day! And I have to give James major props for getting pretty much everything done on his own and making this a lot less stressful for me. He's done everything on the back end and I appreciate it so so much more than he knows. I really did get myself a keeper.

I am SO excited to finally have a place that is 100% ours. No renting, no borrowing. I can make permanent changes and add things to the walls that will stay there! It has been quite a learning experience and very stressful (especially when you + your husband have different tastes) but I have to say we have been so so blessed. We got the best opportunity when we moved here to stay in a home rent-free and just take care of it. HUGE huge blessing. We have a patient and caring set of in-laws who have taken us in off the streets when we had to leave our first home together. Another huge blessing. And we got a great deal on a great home that was pretty close to where we wanted to be. I mean, I really just couldn't ask for more! I'll give more details as they come, but that's been our main focus for months now and I'm so excited to see it all coming together!

This is just a sneak peek! More photos to come!

'round these parts

Whoa!! Where did the time go?! I've clearly been slacking. So let me just sum up the fun parts of the last two months.

My a-dorable primary kids (that I've adopted) did an AMAZING job on their primary program sooo we had a little party! Cookies, chips, drinks, Rice Krispie treats...we got them nice & sugared up and then sent them on their way home....I'm pretty sure I'm Public Enemy Number One in our ward.

After yeeeears of hearing about Lush products and how awesome they are and how cool they are and how great they feel and blah blah blah, I FINALLY got to see what the hype was about. Technically, the cooler part is that they opened this giGANtic mall in Sarasota, which is really cool. They have almost every store you could ever think of or want in your mall. But. They opened a Lush store. And Lush & I have found each other.*Hallelujah* Seriously, I could spend my entire day there just smelling things. Ahhh. If you don't have one around you, just wait. Someday you'll get your chance too. (Or visit me and I will hook you UP!)

This one is SUPER popular and is called..."Sex Bomb." Must be REALLY good! Haha

Sometimes, Florida really freaks me out. If I had a dime for every bug I have killed here, I could retire right now. And the wildlife is NUTS! Alligators, turtles, giant birds, raccoons, I mean I live in the freakin jungle! And then, the other night, James made me pause everything and we heard something outside. When he looked out the window, he laughed and was like "It's an armadillo. He's stuck in our backyard." I THREW the blanket off our bed and ran over to the window! AN ARMADILLO. Since I was a kid, I thought they were so cool but it was one of those animals you almost forgot was a real life, not-mythical creature. I'd never seen one alive & moving so I was more than thrilled!! Except about the part where he couldn't find his way back out of our yard. Poor little guy. But he was gone in the morning so he figured it out.

Okay, so I don't know about you guys. Maybe this is just me. But I have always wanted to have a "signature dish." Doesn't matter what it was or for what occasion, but something my name is behind that people crave. I've always dreamed of someone being like "Ashley, you're bringing ____ right?! It's my favorite!! It's sooooo good!! This event wouldn't be the same without it! You absolutely have to!" And then I'd win Trophy Wife of the Year, along with several other Chef-type awards. Well this year....I think I did it. And it was with this little beaut!

Okay so the picture doesn't make it look all the great, but do NOT let that fool you. I made this THREE, yes you read that right, THREE times during the Thanksgiving season. Work potluck, and two Thanksgivings. Everyone who tried some had nothing but amazing things to say and although I kept cool as a cucumber on the outside, inside I was squealing like a maniac! It's my Sweet Potato Casserole with a marshmallow and streusel topping. Oh mama. It was good. And I finally feel like I have accomplished MAJOR adult and wife milestones. Haha

And I think that's it! All the way up until Thanksgiving, which will be it's own. I mean, we got to have TWO!! That definitely deserves its own little post. Hope everyone is having a BLAST with all the holiday fun happening! I know we are!

halloween.

I'm pretty upset we had no trick-or-treaters this year. I see you kids riding your bikes around everyday so I know you're around. I know where you guys live!....Wait, that came out wrong. But seriously, we just want to give you free candy and see your costumes!! Is that too much to ask?

Luckily, we got to hand out candy as our ward's Annual Trunk or Treat. Handing out candy is like a rite of passage into adulthood. The tables have finally turned and now WE want to be the cool parents that has a reputation around the neighborhood! We even bought the good kind of candy. The expensive stuff....well actually, all candy is expensive, but you get my point--we had all the making of a historic Halloween. Guess I set my goals a little too high because I ended that night in bed, soothing myself with Friends and all the Swedish Fish I wanted. Ha! That'll teach 'em.

Anyway, back to Trunk or Treat. I assumed that people would automatically know who we were. Expected too much again. None of the teenagers had even seen Castaway, and then there's all the older folks who never got around to seeing it! That left a small percentage of people of us in the middle who, thank goodness, made a big deal out of it when they saw us. Because I have to admit, it took a LOOOOT of convincing to get James to dress up with me. Whatever we chose basically had to be made with anything we already had in our house, but had to be totally mind-blowing too. That didn't leave me with a TON of options, but I think we turned out pretty great! And we put some serious work into our costumes. My little artist of a husband painted Wilson on my shirt and I have to say, NICE WORK. I made the wings for his box so I guess I contributed. (Even though it's October, Florida hasn't caught up. It's still pretty warm. Hence why I had to modernize my costume)

Our ward always does a Chili Cookoff and normally, I am SO excited for James's family's recipe. Mmmm. But none of them could come. So I'm glad there was such a selection! It's always so dang good.

This is my friend Melissa's family!! HOW awesome were their costumes!? Wendy, Tinkerbell, Peter Pan, and his shadow! I loved it! I had to show them off. So cute and clever.

 I have to say, maybe it was just me, but the eating part of it was VERY short this year. Haha We had to do it on a Wednesday night so we did everything pretty quickly. I was so excited it was such a good turnout with TONS of people, old and new.

It was dark, but I had to show you the madness that was the Trunk or Treat part! It was awesome!! Look at all the fun costumes! My ward is so much fun. (I'm so excited there's so many people that keep moving in! SCORE!) Sorry about the terrible quality. I use my little ol' iPhone for ALL my picture taking, so this was as good as it was going to get.

There's our bishop! Hey Bishop!

My friends Shalane, Heidi and I took over candy duty while the boys took the kids around. That's what is happening in this picture, but how cute are my friends?! Together, they had Waldos (Where's Waldo), Minnie Mouse, Prince Charming, Cinderella, Dopey, and Cinderella's Fairy Godmother. Haha They're so much fun.

Halloween night was much more mellow. (I didn't get very many pictures for that reason) We waited as long as we could, no kids came, so we headed to Zach and Ana's for dinner. I insisted we had a Halloween themed meal so we had "Mummies" (smokies in Crescent rolls) and Creepy Crawler Nachos. (Since the black beans kind look like little bugs, right?) They were spook-tacular!!

We watched a movie, as is tradition, and then headed home. I was still hoping for a doorbell ring, but it never came. Sigh. Maybe someday I can experience the joy that is giving out the good candy at "the awesome house." But I will say, Friends and Swedish Fish made me feel MUCH better.

surprise of a lifetime!

My aunt & I had been planning the sneakiest of plans for MONTHS and it finally all came around this last weekend. One week ago exactly actually.

During the end of July, I got a text from my aunt asking if we'd consider coming for her 50th birthday party if they helped us out financially to come. I didn't even hesitate!! Of COURSE I was going to accept...even though I felt guilty accepting something SO great and I didn't even ask James before I said yes. Haha But I would not pass up the chance to come back to Arizona (where I grew up and where all my extended family lives) for a couple of days to spend with my entire family! So away we went with the sneaky planning. James was SUCH a trooper throughout the whole thing. He is VERY much a planner (including plan B's and C's) and since we would be flying standby, you really don't get to have a plan. So I felt bad for him. Every time he had questions, there wasn't much to tell him. "We just have to wait and see!"...Poor guy. I told my dad, and my two brother-in-laws in order to make sure they'd get their wives here. Somehow my other sisters found out. Grr. But at least my mom & little sister would be surprised!

Anyway, so the day we were flying out, we found a flight that could work, but it was pretty full. So we took our chance...and we weren't let on. BY ONE SEAT. The guys at the desk were such teases, saying things like "Oooh, today might be your lucky day!" and "It's looking good!" but the man whose seat we were going to take showed up at LITERALLY the VERY last minute. And I was not going to split up with my little hubby, no way! So we got bumped to the next flight going out and left the airport. We got YUMMY lunch, did a little shopping, and of course, spent some time at James's very favorite store--Bass Pro.

Ps-Yes, James flew in his NICEST clothes so that they wouldn't wrinkle.
I, however, flew in your basic "I'd rather be comfy" clothes...yikes.
I'm sure people were giving him weird looks all day.

Ooooh Chipotle. After an exhausting morning, this was sooo heavenly.

When we got back to the airport, we were so happy not to have to check bags in (packed everything into two carry-ons) and made it to the gate early. This flight looked really promising so we were not too worried, and we were able to make it onto the next flight to Charlotte.

Once we landed, we noticed our tickets said that we were on the late flight to Phoenix, leaving at 8pm. Oh heck no. We'd spent all day in airports and on a plane, AND let me say BOTH James & I had colds. So we were pretty spent. No way were we going to get to Arizona at midnight (that's 3am our time!) so we RAN all the way across the airport to get to an earlier flight at 6:00. We crossed our fingers and asked...and made it right on. YES!

Finally, we made it to Phoenix and I was SO excited when we walked outside and there was my aunt & uncle waiting for us. My Aunt Laura came running up and hugged us and that just set the tone for the whole trip. I got SO SO excited.

We all went out for some Chinese food and to discuss how we would surprise my mom & my little sister. We were going to wait for them at the hotel...until we found out they wouldn't be there close to 11:30. So James and I went back to their house to shower and rest a little. But I couldn't! I was too excited. The plan was to tell my mom when she came that my cousin Julie (me) was sleeping on the couch and to wake her up to say hi. Here's how it went...

It was perfect!! Exactly what I wanted. She laughed, she cried, and best of all, my dad kept the secret!! So she was TOTALLY taken off guard. Poor James had fallen asleep in the other room by then so he sleepily came in and they all got excited all over again. They haven't seen James in over a year--he didn't get to come on my last trip there so they were all really excited to get to hang out with him too. I was SO excited to get to see the three of them. Every single time I thought about that moment, I giggled out of excitement. And I was not let down! It was even better than I imagined. Anyway. That was Day One. It's getting long so I'll write about the rest of the trip in another post...probably two since my aunt's party is probably enough for one in itself. 
THANK YOU Aunt Laura, Uncle Brad, and my cousin David for getting this all together. It was SUCH an amazing trip and I can't believe how giving you all are. I will never ever forget it! Love you guy so much! (And stay tuned for the next post!)

promotion? you could say that...

Random post time.

In the LDS church, we are given special duties. These are called "callings," and for the last little while, I have been in the primary working with FUN kids and an even more fun group of adults in a "presidency" as a second counselor. My second calling was to hold activity nights for these sweet little youngins so that they can complete a program called "Faith in God." Every other week, I look at their little book of requirements of things to do to finish them and come up with an activity or lesson (or both!) for each one. My favorite ones are always the ones the deal with developing their talents because we get to do fun stuff like this!

They were decorating church bags to hold their scriptures and any other things they needed at church (like things they got in their classes). I found them at the Target dollar spot and they went CRAZY! I taught them how to use a glue gun (and yes, was right next to them every moment) and gave them all kinds of things to use. They loved it! I can't wait to see the girls carry their creations in with them every Sunday! They did SUCH a great job! (And I have to say, high fives to me for the easiest earning of "Okay, you're our favorite now" EVER! Whoo hoo!)

WELL. Recently, I was released from the Faith in God leader calling and was given another calling...Primary. President. Yeah, I know. WHOA. Second counselor I figured I could handle. I'm pretty okay with following directions. But now, I am the one that will be GIVING those directions! It's intense, but I have to say...I am REALLY excited! I love those kids so much and I can't wait to teach them and learn all about them and help them grow strong in the gospel!

But I am sad because with such a big calling, it means I will probably have to give up leading the girls' activity nights. I'm actually very sad about that. They are SO much fun and I have grown to love and appreciate every single one for exactly who they are. Some of the most touching moments have been when they have confided in me about something going on in their lives-crushes, friend problems, sometimes even bullies and mean girls. Those talks have meant more to me than any other thing I have done in this ward so far. I love them SO much and their little spirits are just amazing.

I had to dedicate at least one post to tell you how amazing each of them are. I hope every member of the church gets to work with the youth at some point in their life, especially at the age. In primary. It's the BEST and you grow so much learning from them. I love you girls! I am SO happy I got to be with you every other Wednesday night this past year. You are all SUCH amazing girls and I am not going ANYWHERE! So I hope you still feel like you can come to me for anything! Gosh. Gettin a little emotional here...Okay we're good. Now let's get a replacement who will KNOCK your socks off!! :)